Friday, February 7, 2014 did that happen??

Dear Blogosophere,
Please forgive me for I have sinned,
It has been 89 days since my last post...

Seriously 89 days!! Where has that time gone? My last post was in November 2013, as a kid I remember those summer holidays draaaaging by- but the older I get the quicker it flashes by- definitely has me worried for the future!!

So, pivotal question whats been happening??
I feel like not a lot, but then at the same time plenty.
I've spent a lot, and I really mean that a lot of time with my true love instagram- the ease and quickness of recording bits of life really appeal to me, as does the general positive, uplifting atmosphere surrounding it.

I spent Christmas is Adelaide with my beautiful family- and even snuck away Christmas night to spend some time with friends. I felt like I spent the Christmas break surrounded by the people I love It was good.
I saw in the New Year with friends, and chose the word Nurture to guide me this year. There are so many aspects of my life that I want to nurture and grow- and I'm feeling proud of realising that and making some of the changes that needed to be made.
 I had a lovely trip to Melbourne with my younger, smaller sister and Mumma Bear to celebrate Mum's fabulous special birthday. It was great to get away- we shopped, we ate, I managed to read 3 books, catchup on sleep, shop some more, visit the casino, drink some cocktails, shop some more, and see a show. Perfect really.

I convinced my best girl to get a tattoo with me. I am utterly, utterly in love with the small piece of art hidden on my leg and now have something to remember not only the amazing friend I have but also signify this year of change and period of growth in my life.

I have achieved some good things at work, learning new things every single day- and that makes me proud.
I've spent time with good people doing good things.
I've had my first bingo outing- which was...educational...all night I fought the urge too call out "B-iii-nnnn-ggg-oooo" the same way Vada does in My Girl. I'm torn between wanting to go back and win AND getting over the fact that I'm not allowed to talk for 2 hours!

I've been to the beach and  to 20/20 cricket matches, I've been out for coffee's and had catchup's with good people and been out dancing until my toes hurt.

Really its all been pretty good.
And that is nice.

How are you??

xx Lauren

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Music: Five- Got the Feeling

In the 90's I was in love with the boy bands, no doubt in a similar vein that 1D are loved now. I had posters of 'N Sync, Backstreet Boys, 98 Degrees and Five covering my wardrobe and books...I would beg mum to buy me Big Hits or Smash Hits so that I could cut out the lyrics to all the new songs, memorise them and sing along loudly with my 100% Hits CDs.

Last week I had one of my teenage dreams come true when I saw Five perform at HQ. Technically they should be called Four now, with J (always the best looking the the group) not joining in on the reunion fun.It was fabulous!! it left me smiley for days- they were fabulous and cheesy - synchronized boy dancing to a room filled with females- easily 100 females to every 1 guy.
The 90's really was a fun time to grow up!

Now everybody's moving, everybody's grooving
Getting down with Five when we come your way
Move it to the left now you shake it to the right
Cos you know we gotta keep this party
Pumping through the night
Five- Got the Feeling 

Do you have a favourite 90's band? Have you seen any live?
xx Lauren

Saturday, November 9, 2013


"Let the gratefulness overflow into blessing all around you. Then, it will be a good day"


xo Lauren

Monday, October 28, 2013


I had a coffee with a friend this afternoon and because I am a complete twit I was 35 minutes early- something I didn't realise until it was to late to go do something else. It was a blessing in disguise though- it gave me a whole bunch of time to just sit. To people watch and organise some of the thoughts wafting through my brain. Coming off the back of last weekends timeout there is A LOT I am trying to process at the moment, working out how to move forward.

When it comes to blogging, I like the aspect of keeping a virtual diary, of sharing my thoughts with the greater public, but what is always at the back of my mind is that I don't want to come off as conceited or attention seeking. That is totally not my style, its more for my own record keeping and attempting to keep myself accountable.

I am pretty disappointed in myself actually. That I let so much get to me and drag me backwards, a long way backwards, but I have reached my tipping point. I am done with feeling less than ordinary, and using food as my crutch, I am giving myself a kick up the arse and looking after myself again.

It takes 21 days to form a habit, that I know, so I am committing myself to taking the next three weeks to create the successful building blocks that I once had. I will:
  • exercise 6 days a week- for a minimum of 30 minutes- in the morning, before work
  • be more mindful about what I am eating
  • drink more water and cut my caffeine consumption down
  • worry less about the world and more about me

A vague but easy start.
Lets try this again.
xx Lauren

Friday, October 25, 2013

Music: Pitbull ft Ke$ha - Timber

Last weekend I spent some cutting and sticking, enjoying getting my craft on with some awesome creative people. I  hadn't scrap booked in forever and I had so much fun using the box of scraps I took with me to create some pretty pages, thirteen in fact.

On sunday morning I spent some time sitting next to the lovely Sue and she pointed out that I hadn't updated my blog just for you Sue, one of my favourite songs playing on the radio at the moment, it defiantly makes me want to get up and dance!!

It's going down, I'm yelling timber
You better move, you better dance
Let's make a night, you won't remember
I'll be the one, you won't forget

Have a fabulous weekend friends,
xx Lauren

Monday, September 16, 2013

Music: MKTO- Classic

Life would be boring without music.
And personally if this song doesn't make you at least tap your toe I think there is something wrong with you... it makes me want to dance!
That is all.
I wanna thrill you like Michael
I wanna kiss you like Prince
Let’s get it on like Marvin Gaye
Like Hathaway write a song for you like this
Hope you had a lovely Monday,
xx Lauren

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Sunday Funday

Sunday is always the best day to re-evaluate life isn't it? It must be the ending of one week and the fresh clean start of another that makes it that way. Spending a bit of down time this afternoon with a triple j hottest 100 playlist and my notebook has lead me here to the computer to make 'real' some of the thoughts whizzing about in my poor little brain lately.
For me, the last six months life has been a bit of a tough gig. The past two months especially  rough but true to form I've learnt an awful lot about myself, which can only be taken as a positive. One of the most important lessons that I've learnt is that there is absolutely nothing wrong with that and very slowly I am rebuilding into the person that I want to be.
I've been talking to a psychologist over the last month, its been tough, seriously every appointment I have to force myself to stay in the beige waiting room- not run far, far, far away and hide like I would prefer- I've had to ask myself questions that have answers that I don't really like, I've had to dig deep and lay bare all the parts of me that are hurting and I know that there is a lot more left that needs work. I am learning all sorts of tools that I am sure will stay with me for the rest of my life, strategies and questions that will make sure that I get from life exactly what I need and want.
I have become a pro at the fake smile, at getting one with life, because really, life doesn't end because I've had enough of it and by keeping on keeping on sometimes life certainly becomes easier to deal with.
Big stuff to deal with, and I know that I'm not alone with my floundering but it feels good to 'put it out there', to stop making excuses and admit that I'm actually pretty fucked up, but that's ok.
At the end of the day I have amazing parents who would walk over water for me and a few friends who won't stop nagging until they know I am ok, and I love them for that.
I am a very lucky girl.
xx Lauren