Thursday, March 15, 2012

How it all changes...a woe is me post

I've been on this healthy living/weight loss/fitness regime for a little over a year now, I'm feel very proud of myself actually but tonight I am sitting here very sad and very sorry for myself, a total sad sack really.
I have hurt my shoulder. Bad.
Mostly a result of seven years dealing blackjack, but I think my new found love of boxing has perhaps exacerbated it too. I've been visiting the physio, stretching and doing some strengthening exercises but I am devastated at the fact that I have been banned from boxing.
It is seriously making me feel sad (have I mentioned that yet???) I blame the tiredness, but I did consider crying about it this afternoon.
Twelve months ago if I'd been faced with similar injury I would've thrown my hands up in the air, said brilliant and stopped all gym activity, but all I want right now is to get better and in the meantime I'll be working with SuperStef to come up with all the things I can do in the meantime.
Since when did I care so much about exercise? Since when did I feel upset that I'm not ALLOWED to do push ups? Since when did I almost cry because I couldn't box?
I took myself off to the Chinese massage lady today- she is fabulously good...although being stuck with a million (I stopped counting at 15) pins and pummelled to the point of almost tears was not an enjoyable afternoon, I hope that it will help the healing process.
Time can only tell.

And that is the change in me today.
xx Lauren

4 comments:

Amanda hall said...

Babe it isn't a woe is me post. It's a "look at how far I have come" and a "I'm working at being the best I can be" kind of post. Sorry you are hurt. Work hard at getting it back working again. Adapt and accept the changes to your gym routine. Heal. Chin up. You should be proud x

Abi said...

Remember your Physio can read your posts!!!! Lol!!!! Darlin - if u hang in there and get this right u will be one tough mudder!!!! I promise!!!! You've come a long way so far - and u should be very proud of yourself but you're still on the journey!! Little hurdle!!!! Get up!!! Soldier on!! No F'in quitting cos I will kick your ass!!! And ps. U have to tell me if u are cheating on me with a mean Asian woman!!!!! Xxxx

Kim Arnold said...

Injury suxs big time - I know. My problem area of my bum (ha and not because of its size). My right glute is temperamental. I have been through rest and recovery and now I manage it. You need to take the time to heal properly. You are awesomely amazing and this is just a little speed bump - definitely not a hurdle. You just need to slow down a little and you will cruise right over it!

Kate M said...

Yep, celebrate the change within. This is merely a little challenge for you & I'll bet you'll conquer & move forward AGAIN. You are such an inspiration xo